Saturday, September 29, 2012

A Real Short Rant

I just have one little rant to put up here, and only because it's screaming to get out of me but I can't write it or talk about it anywhere else...

If I have given up hours at worked and rode a packed bus an hour one way just so I can spend some time with you DO NOT spend the entire time talking about all your problems with you classmate, giving me impossible situations and telling me to tell you what to do.  I don't know what's going on; I don't know who these people are and you've kind of made yourself into what an English major would call an "unreliable narrator."  I am your friend NOT some genius of social interaction and I do not always know what you should do, especially when I have never met the people you are having problems with.  DO NOT get mad at me when I don't respond or if I say "I don't know what to tell you" after you've shot down or ignored what little advice I felt safe to give you.  I do understand that that can be frustrating for you to have a friend unable to help you, but it's also frustrating to me when you expect me to have the answer to all your problems.  You are welcome to talk about them to me, but I do not have all the answers and don't expect me to. 

And if I've given up a shift at work so I can write a 10-page paper on Othello and King Lear but still show up and hang out with you for six hours, understand that I really gave up that shift so I can spend that time with you AND DO NOT LAY A GUILT TRIP ON ME!  I am here, spending time with you, at the expense of a paper and my paycheck, so you are OBVIOUSLY important to me and I don't appreciate you constantly commenting on how I am never there for you BECAUSE I AM STANDING RIGHT THERE, LISTENING TO YOU TALK ABOUT YOUR PROBLEMS FOR THREE HOURS STRAIGHT (after watching a movie I had no interest in seeing and only went to because I knew you wanted to see it and I know things have been rough for you). AND I AM TRYING TO GIVE YOU SOME ADVICE, EVEN IF IT'S NOT WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR!  And then it drives me even more crazy, when you act like hanging out with you is SUCH an imposition.  The way you're acting, it is!  This is the 2nd time in a row I've gone out with you and felt like crap afterwards.  I understand you've having issues with other people, but stop letting it control the little bit of time we have to hang out together!

I am a senior, I am working almost triple your hours at work, and I live an hour (minimum) outside the city, as the bus drives (and with gas as expensive as it is, that's how I'm getting around).  I have just given up what practically amounts to my entire day, minus a few hours in the evening.  I haven't seen Amy since the beginning of August and the only reason I've seen Lindsay recently is because she lives right next to where I work.  I'm not ignoring you or avoiding you or dropping you for new, more exciting people; I just haven't had the time/energy to spend time with any of my friends SO TRUST ME AND BELIEVE ME WHEN I TELL YOU SO!  Stop getting so jealous because I have other friends.

*Deep Breath*  I feel so much better now.

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